May I Grovel For Your Services?

By John Gardner

groveling for services
“May I grovel for your services?”

I had five music students studying individually with me at the small, liberal arts university. I had a signed adjunct faculty contract for the upcoming year.

The person who asked me to sign the contract called and asked me to come in. It sounded serious.

“We need you to voluntarily let us cancel your contract. You will not have any students this year.”

They had negotiated with a “Performance Major” student to come, but part of that negotiation included that the student would study with the principal on that instrument from the local professional orchestra.

But, when they went to the instrumental instructor, the instructor refused to make the trip for one student. He wanted all of them. To get all of them, the music department needed me to give up my contract. It was a signed agreement, so I needed to do so on my own. Of course, there were apologies.

I did.

In a relatively short amount of time, the performance major changed majors and sold her instruments. Another changed majors and dropped instrumental lessons. And a third was threatening to do so.

And then…..

…..they were back to a number the instructor was not willing to work with.

I got a call from the Department Chair asking me to come in. Mad, hurt, disappointed and convinced I’d never work with the university again, I went.

After knocking and entering, he got out of his chair, down on his knees with hands in praying position — and crawing on his knees toward me as he asked,

“May I grovel for your services?”


At the first private lesson with a student who studied with me prior to the contract cancellation, I noticed several tick marks next to several of the exercises in the book she was working from. When I asked what those were all about,

“He would tell me to play each of these ten times each and then come to the practice room where he had gone to practice.”

I was furious — not with the student. That instructor was banned from the campus.

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